Living With Food: The Science Supporting Eating Disorder Treatment

This letter was written by an adolescent who has gone through our day treatment program. It is published anonymously with her permission.

I want you do know that I am no longer letting you control my thoughts, beliefs, actions, and perspectives on food. You have hurt me in ways I cannot even describe and left me with absolutely nothing. I cant count with my fingers and toes how many lies you've whispered to me and how many times I've listened and obeyed your commands.

You promised me companionship and swore to never hurt me. You lied, once again. I listened when you told me I was worthless, a nobody, nothing but a number. I even listened when the demands you were spitting at me made me feel physically ill. I did everything for you, and you did nothing but destroy the person I once was. You made me sick and led me into a deep, black hole of loneliness and despair.

I am done with your tricks and games, Edie. There isn't room for the both of us anymore, one of us has to go and it's not going to be me. I am moving on and taking control and living the life I deserve to have. You were the worst "friend" one could have and I would not even give this curse to the person I despised the most. Don't bother knocking on my door again, I wont be here to answer.

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